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Now I am excited

on September 29th, 2010 by Rebeccca

Up until now, when friends would say, “You must be so excited to have published your book,” I wasn’t. Until today when I checked the UPS tracking and saw that one box of books was shipped and had arrived in Victoria. Now I am sitting here, almost paralyzed.

Now I understand the saying “sitting on pins and needles.” Your whole focus would be on that one sensation and everything else would be a blur. I have things I should do, could do, like finally write some press releases, but I am finding it hard to concentrate. All I can see in my mind’s eye is the UPS truck pulling up to the gate, me rushing down to take the box from the driver’s hands, cutting open the box and pulling out the book.

I can’t seem to think about what comes after that. What if I open the book and I see a glaring error? What if . . .? What if . . .? I close my mind to the fearful thoughts, pull myself back to the present, and decide to clean the house. I might not be able to get my mind to focus, but I can get my body to vacuum, dust, wash windows. The act of moving my body will calm my mind and keep me from creating scenarios for the future. When everything is polished and shiny I will be able to sit down and write that amazing press release. And think about something other than the delivery of my book.

| Posted in Victoria-Bench by Bench, ruminations

4 Responses to “Now I am excited”

  1. Mom
    October 3rd, 2010 at 6:42 pm

    sounds good. You are so busy that there is no time to be on the computer!

  2. Your Name.....
    October 3rd, 2010 at 6:43 pm

    We will be anxiously awaiting a copy!

  3. Shelley Scott
    December 2nd, 2010 at 11:41 am

    Salutations Rebecca: How wonderful that you chose to generate this fabulous book. It brings to my mind — my own first days as a newcomer to Victoria. One day in February 1977…I hadn’t achieved the job postings desired…I sat down, in a blue mood, on a bench on the lower Inner Harbour…and at that bench, a live sea lion sniffed at my foot and was staring back up at me…my mood lifted 150%…benches in Victoria can be quite magical at times…Bravo for your inspiration! I returned to job applications and got a job posting that very afternoon. It is good to sit down on a bench for a while. Shelley.

  4. Tim Squire
    December 7th, 2010 at 3:54 pm

    Congratulations on the book.
    I am looking forward to catching up with whjat you have been doing for the last few years. I am coming to Victoria on January 29 or 30 for a Conference and wondering if you will be available for a visit from a long lost Saskatchewan based family friend.
    Tim Squire.

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